Smile Behind The ScreenAs a unique routine you’re very much familiar with. For many different reasons that object seems to be important for you. And you wonder… how is that a non-living item can make you feel like a child in front of his/her first Christmas present… a sensation that even when we grow up, we try to hold on to it, and fight who ever dares taking it away from us. …one smile that got you by surprise and the muscles on your face couldn’t help but to express that singular movement. …one smile that you give to an object that can’t really see it, feel it or touch it. …one smile that you wish could go through the glass and spread its energy to that other soul that has decided to join you in this amazingly surprising frame of time. No picture for this entry, but one special song to sing along... The Spot This same spot I've seen before I walked right by it, but took too much time thinking if I should stop or not then I walked away, and smiled about it Always the same time.. 9:24 pm Some more days passed by I found myself walking near the spot once more and it didn't surprise me to find myself waiting to stay and check it out One day I stayed, it was 9:24 pm I stood there and watched people walk by me talk right next to me I heard you and I saw you fixing this energy I felt standing here then I walked away again. Months went by and I kept on crossing myself with the spot wondering why on earth my feet keep on guiding me thinking about what there is to offer in here knowing that I could stay just for too long understanding that oh well.. it is you who I wait for So now I walk by it, and little notes I leave for you I want to join you in the magic but everything I know tells me not to. Your soul is new to me, but the shadow not so much Here I'll stand, whenever is 9:24 pm so make a plan. Make Me Jump Meeting you in one alone Friday night talking about that old love fading crushes and making sure we're not copying that song although yes, we're tierd of being alone Search for me, and find one answer one smile and one unique understanding I'll be writing our love song, for no one but as together as we suffer one simple smile can surprise us and we'll be golden for a couple of seconds la la la node your head with this song and whisper that hidden idea I won't hear it and your secret will stay safe for more time Hurry and be my company for a colorful frame of time you're so good for me in this moment for this time of my universe and for a reaction in a universe that seems to keep us connected Sign in and we'll keep on figuring this out for a moment that seems to eat other people alive we smile to each other we might be staying golden in my own different dimension you'll be safe from me. I'll know it, when I see you and your heart is not jumping right now, we'll wait for our hearts to jump together for them. Crossing Water They could meet and find each other
those moments could be saved for one simple eternity. So many "could" in a short phrase... so many whispers in one line 'cause this river of mine still carries the not knowing ignoring emptiness in one small answer. Our waters once crossed and met, the liked each other but now that both have flouted I can't stop drowning as if July never ends. Tonight will be 122 days 2928 hours and 175680 impulses for the strength of this wave that fights against me for my hand not to reach and sink. In other words, I crossed your river and I can't get out of it until the water clears for me. Other waters await but you froze yours so much that I no longer feel like belonging in it I'll see you come back not knowing my feet wait for that reaction to swim away. ~ L in the photo Encounter II Would you let me walk down your street? Would you sell me a bit of your time? Amazing glitter I own and for some hours I could exchange them. Would you leave your universe for a while? And join me in this golden balloon that can only hold us before dawn. Would you bring your music with you? These notes of mine can make me smile There's one bag of minutes before the guard comes back. Swim in a naked space and some sounds to cheat time Clocks fell in love with our laugh. Would you think about this dream before he wakes up? From his body we took this energy, these movements and after is all gone... your soul shall go back to that other universe. Would you let me say good bye once more? Would you remind me about this moment? We shall meet again soon. Extraordinary Your perspective will always be the same, whether you make changes in your steps or not, the vision provided will remain, something different will always be needed.You could take a moment of your day and think of your life as kind, special, regular or that rush could surprise you on an early morning, and you might wonder if this is all there should be for you, well then.. you can always tell yourself that some things could be different, as if different would be relative to happiness.. is different always good? We will always need/want more, new ideas and ways to reach out, new opinions and getaways for illusions to become real. The control of time and other people's effect in our lives, we will always need/want more from them, from us. But after getting it you'll end up in that same place, gathering memories and fantasies of "what if"... But while you're sneaking around, you might miss the greatest answer for this deal there is... Surprise yourself by knowing that without knowing things can become extraordinary, in a matter of time, shapes and shades. Only surprises can change your ordinary road into an extraordinary world. But we can really screw it up... If you seek, the surprise won't show up If you force change, the surprise won't help If you wait, the surprise will laugh Let yourself be surprised by this universe and extraordinary your day will be. Ordinary still? Lyrics by Natalie Merchant When I was just a little girl my mamma said to me, "beware of the devil my child In the dark rocky places he'll keep Beware of the devil my child Beware of his charming ways You'll fall under an evil spell Just looking at his beautiful face You gotta build yourself a levee deep inside" "don't go walking by the riverside Alone in the pale moonlight He'll come up upon you girl With no earthy body in sight Come up upon you girl And he'll whisper something sweet Then take you where the waters rise So high and run so deep." "you gotta build yourself a levee deep inside Gotta build yourself a levee deep inside Build yourself a levee girl when the waters run high" Now when I was just a little girl my mamma said to me, "beware of the devil my child But if by chance you should meet Beware of his cold dark eyes full of bold and unholy deceit He'll tempt you with a whirling pool of lies and promises He'll deny or that he will never keep" "you gotta build yourself a levee deep inside Gotta build yourself a levee deep inside Build yourself a levee girl when the waters run high" 1:08 AM And here I am once again, facing this ceiling because I guess you were all waiting there's a new face and soul sitting here with us without knowing, my energy brought you here tonight and I don't seem to be surprised by it So hey you... Filling this room with terrible and bad ideas that make us laugh 'cause you're hanging up there and there's so much I can share with you staring at each one of you and all these ideas you see in my eyes oh no, disaster it is why we're doing this, this way... before you all wake up and feel weird maybe you had a dream and wonder why did I make you think about me? Clicking clock and shining mirrors for a moment we're all quiet and the silence takes us softly and while that song plays underneath the energy I thank you for coming during my sleep It is 1:08 AM and the feeling is still great every night. Wake Up.2 As if that rush could make your feet go faster and faster light wind through your hair and directly to your neck, fall down just for the time needed with musical sadness and a cup of honey for dinner. There are some orange squares indicating the way but you won't make it unless you breathe in and lift your body come back from that wonder come back from that hole. When you went to that space you felt the energy and it was real but as you fell you could smell the strawberrys and nothing felt so sick then Look up and you will see no one You might wait for a while during the fall but he won't show up and he might not understand this maybe if you look down Wonderfully waiting by that gray door... It gets clear and light feels so warm on your face you can almost smell the tangerines now. So, After And what happens after your mind has set up an idea? Truth it is that the more certain, the more you glow What happens after your actions respond to that awareness? There is a world that won't stop throwing its effects on you So what happens after you told them how you felt? So they say, there are some that will fight back and some that will settle What happens with that you've been hiding from your choices? It looks back at you and you have no answer that seems to satisfy And what happens when that other you seems to be gaining power? You just wish for them not to know. Saying hello to a fear that you thought was gone... Rain No Rain no more the moments I've waited. Rain no more for all the times I waited for you to wake up. Rain no more for the times I thought things were meant to be like that Rain no more for my perspective of all. If I could make you disappear If I could erase from this frame If I had that magical power If I cared enough for myself, Rain no more in my heart Rain no more for your experiments with me Rain no more for the ones I push away Rain no more for my body and its pain If I could make you face your truth, and to me. Bite Your Tongue Some say that is not very healthy to relay your process of feeling better on someone new every time, and some others would agree with the first group’s opinion. And they might be right, but I can't avoid it, as they come they go, but I have them and they have me. Lyrics by Duncan Sheik Such an annoying conversation I'm sorry but I'm tired of trying To be some picture of compassion ...and anyway it sounds like I'm lying ...and yes I've heard the words has conspired To steal away your god-given right To a happy home and comfortable children Next you'll sue them for abandoning you So bite your tongue You're not the only one Who's been let down Bite your tongue Maybe it's good for you To hit the ground Oh, christ...it's gonna sound like I'm agreeing With the most ultra-boring ideas Of pops psychological western gurus Who haven't gotten lucky in years ...and so you see I have no intention Of giving you the easy way out yes I'll smile as I burn the self-help section Of my local bookstore Blame the shapes and blame the angles Blame it on your own dark planes If you blame on something other... The victim's somg remains... Remains... Dream Maker *So they say you're here to see me, and I thought you weren't brave enough... so speak up. - I've made my decision, and I need you to make it real. *Real can never be the word to describe my performance within your mind, if fantasy isn't what you're looking for, you must leave now. - There's nothing real in the steps I take, or the situations I'm in. *If fake ideas may fill your desire, then breathe with me while I steal your thoughts and leave my magic inside your head. - Then if so, I will only seek for my nights to be long and clear... and all that I work for will turn into energy for my eyes to stay closed; your dust makes me fly. *Breathe again and don't ever face the ground, for a tragic fall you must avoid. There's only magic and invisible air in this room, so make it yours with this power I provide. - And if I get to realize that living the dream is better than reality... *... then I'll grow in you as oxygen expanding in human's lungs... But awaking is beyond my power and dreams can never be this fantastic unless your mind is resting under my control. - Then make that happen... Lyrics by Kelly De Martino Don't you see
All I wanted to be Was just like you And here I am Guitar in my hand And I'm just like you Don't you see All I wanted to be Was just like you And here I am Packed my bags and ran And I'm just like you Don't you see All I wanted to be Was just like you And so I'll go Still love you though First There's always a first time for everything, and it becomes the cover of special albums you start collecting during your walk. The first time your body felt like shaking in the presence of that other energy. The first time you let someone else know what you really thought. The first time you made your versions clear and felt good about it. The first time you decided to be irresponsible and liked it. The first time you heard that song. The first time you felt like your skin was born after a touch. The first time you waited for the tears to come but a different feeling surprised you. The first time you realized you needed that control. The first time you began counting times and dates. The first time someone stole your kiss. The first time you saw colors in everything. The first time you made a mistake and couldn't forgive yourself. The first time you made someone say that line and then blamed him for it. The first time you thought about someone else while being with this other person. The first time your heart felt different in a terrible way. The first time your thoughts became dancing species. The first time you felt that desire of holding a hand. The first time you knew you could change realities for a future with less disappointments from his soul. Just because I will never run out of them... Lyrics by No Doubt You and me We used to be together Everyday together always I really feel That I'm losing my best friend I can't believe This could be the end It looks as though you're letting go And if it's real Well I don't want to know Don't speak I know just what you're saying So please stop explaining Don't tell me cause it hurts Don't speak I know what you're thinking I don't need your reasons Don't tell me cause it hurts Our memories Well, they can be inviting But some are altogether Mighty frightening As we die, both you and I With my head in my hands I sit and cry Don't speak I know just what you're saying So please stop explaining Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no) Don't speak I know what you're thinking I don't need your reasons Don't tell me cause it hurts It's all ending I gotta stop pretending who we are... You and me I can see us dying...are we? Don't speak I know just what you're saying So please stop explaining Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no) Don't speak I know what you're thinking I don't need your reasons Don't tell me cause it hurts Don't tell me cause it hurts! I know what you're saying So please stop explaining Don't speak, don't speak, don't speak, oh I know what you're thinking And I don't need your reasons I know you're good, I know you're good, I know you're real good Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts Five Minutes Five minutes to go over that conversation again
Five minutes before you start asking where we stood once more Five minutes before that songs plays again Five minutes before I force myself to deal with it Five minutes until this whole frame disappears Five minutes before I start yelling again Five minutes for your eyes to tear me down Five minutes before we go back to our corners and think of our next move Five minutes to hide Five minutes to be quiet Five minutes of not listening Five minutes to drive you crazy I'm smiling in here In 4 Is Gone Remember about your careless time
and the point where you began looking down staring at your shoes they never walked alone Remember the endless smile and the pain behind those muscles holding all that air inside you kept so much for yourself Remember the power that was beneath it and that transparent door we could both see through it but did you ever understand the image? Remember how the future used to look like and all the corners I began to find you became a master in your art and yesterday changed what I needed forever Huddled In A Bundle Just as in a magical and twisted way I turn regular stuff about a day into a musical fantasy of a wonderful experience, maybe like falling into that hole of Alice… Nothing to do with the main title of this, but as common for many as it is for me, bumping into others happens in a daily basis. Random people, people you might not wanna run into, people that you were expecting to see that day, people who in a subconscious level you put right in front of you just to see a reaction, and other simpler reasons… but there they are and so as you. In the photo: Wal & Vivian so the soldiers soak up all the sun and the company is continually struck dumb now everyone wonders where we're from while the level-headed are heading for their homes way before they come all i know is i'm never gonna go the safe way home so heres a clue for all you new boy destroyers never ever think about granting us piece but please relieve the clarity and forget them before our loyal own start moaning like children before their uniformed brethren send them to heaven all i know is im never gonna go the safe way home quality time with the unkind is better than being alone it's all i know why does every evening have to end this way huddled in a bundle in a dark dark doorway freezing please baby throw down some keys let this kitten in meow it's me all i know is i'm never gonna go the safe way home quality time with the unkind is better than being alone it's all i know why does eveery evening have to end this way why oh why does every evening have to end
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