Self-directed Life

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Es grande el poder que se sostiene dentro de las pequeñas decisiones tomadas. No necesariamente con respecto a asuntos de gran importancia, sino también cualquier tipo de actitud que se adquiere por motivos nuestros, y propios de un ser pensante que se supone somos.

Somos tan conscientes de todo, tan conscientes que somos capaces de engañarnos a nosotros mismos creándonos dudas, otorgándonos opciones y luego eligiendo respuestas necesarias, todo dentro de un proceso de total comprensión pero que, al ser acciones reales tomadas por nosotros mismos, somos capaces de escudarlas detras de alguna verdad falsa para evitar ciertas cosas con las que nah.. no queremos tener que lidiar aún.

No hay forma lógica de tomar desiciones basándose en el futuro, ya que es un tiempo que aún no existe, sino que se debería utilizar la información del presente (que parece poca muchas veces) para saber entender realmente lo que deseamos. El asunto está que si se vive de esa forma, es difícil guiarnos a través de proyecciones, es decir la forma en la cual nos vemos de aqui a cierto tiempo.

Porque si suena tan organizado el planificarse hacia un tiempo que aún no llega, por todo eso de preparar y preveer... no estoy utilizando realmente la información del presente y si es asi, no estoy realmente viviendo mi tiempo real. Cierto?

Lo sabemos y aún así lo hacemos... como actores dentro de una novela que seguimos nuestros propios guiones escritos día a día por nuestra mano. Se obtiene exactamente lo que se busca, aún y cuando es tan fácil encontrar elementos que culpar. Oh give me some light.

Photo by Vivian Alvarez
Lyrics by The Verve

I sit and wonder, I often wonder
I sit and wonder about the things she does
I sit and wonder, I often wonder,
Ive been waiting for this moment to come

And shes the teacher and im the pupil but i aint learning anything at all,
Now im falling into the black hole and i can barely feel the sun

Yeah i sit and wonder, I fall to pieces
Ive been waiting for her to come
A bed of roses, her cheeks like peaches,
Yeah i aint going to wait no more,

Give me some light, give the light, yeah give me some light, give me some light

Well writes a passage, we are mistaken yeah some are going to break into stone, the door is open and i am reaching, yeah it looks like a prodical son

Yeah give me some light, give the light, yeah give me some light, give me some light.

God give me the light, give me the light, yeah give me some light, give me some light

Ive been there doing it to my mind lord

Something is going on inside my head lord,
Something is going on inside my head lord,
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Raw Visions

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Commitment
Does that word really represent a lot? Or is it just the fame that has gained?

Let's define it (Wikipedia): Commitment means to duty or pledge to something or someone, and can refer to: • Personal commitment, interaction dominated by obligations. These obligations may be mutual, or self-imposed, or explicitly stated, or may not.

Many words that show me where the term gets so scary: duty, dominated, obligations.. I guess that to give a concept, those words need to be used, but from my point of view (or at least the point of view I'm trying to give here) is the following:

People has created a monster out of this definition because of the reactions that get created after making a certain commitment. They tend to see the biggest picture before seeing the very small rut of this action: I make commitments all the time, and that just means the beginning and honest start of an emotional connection. But I guess that this already represents a big deal for some...

I guess that in my case I easily make these commitments because I'm able to identify where I'll find good connections, and once I find them I can't stop sharing myself to them... But what's the cost of all this I give and allow others to take? What's the purpose of these connections?... The commitment begins the moment that our feelings get exposed, even when sometimes we still don't know what they mean...

Some could already be in a relationship and still have made this commitment with anyone just because they have shown their emotions and sensations to the other person, connecting to them... I have made a couple of commitments as well just for being so open with how and what I feel.. But what have I put on the table for them to grab? Where's the deal between letting people know about feelings and take actions based on them..? Am I compromising myself?

I think I'm paranoid.
This might ring your bell, and yours, and yours...

In the photo: eLla
Lyrics by: Garbage

You can look, but you can't touch
I don't think I like you much
Heaven knows what a girl can do
Heaven knows what you've got to prove

I think I'm paranoid
And complicated
I think I'm paranoid
Manipulated

Bend me
Break me
Anyway you need me
All I want is you

Bend me
Break me
Breaking down is easy
All I want is you

I fall down just to give you a thrill
Prop me up with another pill
If I should fail, if I should fold
I nailed my faith to the sticking pole

I think I'm paranoid
Manipulated
I think I'm paranoid
Too complicated

Bend me
Break me
Anyway you need me
All I want is you

Bend me
Break me
Breaking down is easy
All I want is you

I think I'm paranoid
I think I'm paranoid

Bend me
Break me
Anyway you need me
All I want is you

Bend me
Break me
Breaking down is easy
All I want is you

Steal me, deal me, anyway you heal me
Maim me, tame me, you can never change me
Love me, like me, come ahead and fight me
Please me, tease me, go ahead and leave me

Bend me
Break me
Anyway you need me
As long as I want you baby it's alright
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Dual

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Once I had a dream, then a thought and then dream again... it was constant and it's been coming every once in a while. When it does, all my reality changes and everything is clear to me and no one else.

~There's a sense of reality just for you and me~

Closing boxes and moving on has become my specialty, and I've been trying to understand why is that even when that box in particular has been closed already, some holes get created and a certain kind of light comes right to me... as for today, when that dream/thought came to me again I could see it clearly.

~We are still not ready~

There're no boxes to close anymore, 'cause it's been a long time since we were in that place and where we are now is not even close to what we knew before, this time and this place is as peaceful and pure as we never understood before... It's just hard to get used to this kind of well-being.

~We don't need to prove anything else, anymore~

We'll always come around each other, we just need to find that trigger that will keep this realness within our visions for good. You're not ready to let me go and I'm not ready to live a life without you. I had a dream where you died and all I knew this morning is that we are so far from each other as we want us to be.

~No more glass to brake, no more ideas to show~

I represent two different versions for you, one is dead and the other one is waiting for you to understand what is it that you want. All your other versions I once loved are in that box, I'm just trying to hold on to the only one that won't hurt me ever again. Is now the time to find out if these versions of you and me are strong enough to live in an era that no longer holds that greatest love as an ideal, and are ready to love again.

~I'm still here~

In the photo: Wal
Taken by: Vivian Alvarez
Lyrics by The Cranberries

I'm not going out tonight 'cos I don't want to go
I am staying at home tonight 'cos I don't want to know
You revealed a world to me and I would never be
Dwelling in such happiness, your gift on purity

Eh-ee-oh, eh-ee-oh, eh-ee,oh, eh-ee-oh X 2

Aahh, you and me it will always be
You and me Forever be,
Eternally it will always be You and me

Taylor, Taylor, Taylor, Taylor

I don't pay attention to the ones who never cared
Find your onw direction 'cos there's sweetness in the air
You will be the world to me and I will always be
Dwelling in this happiness, your gift of purity

Eh-ee-oh, eh-ee-oh, eh-ee,oh, eh-ee-oh X 2

Aahh, you and me it will always be
You and me Forever be,
Eternally it Will always be
You and me

Always be You and me
Forever be, Eternally
It will always be You and me
Forever be, Eternally
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