Maybe I wish I felt different about this, but there's always one truth within all in our mind states. I heard this song, and after certain amounts of re-plays an idea came to my head: Today I don't believe what the lyrics say, at least not tonight, I never know about tomorrow.

There is a bunch of endings and beginnings in life, they all differ in many circunstancial points, and they happen with no control over time. I never know when moments like that can come and surprise me, or when they can do it again and just vanish. But they do, and in some more than in others I try to avoid the warning signs, just to test myself.

The heart can never beat the same way with different people, I wish I believed in that true beating or the one that will make the other ones get smaller, or make me forget their sound within time... Maybe this perspective of mine will change in the future, maybe I hope for it, but for now I enjoy the fact that I don't... because it means that I've been able to assume some endings, just to explore these nice beginnings.

I do believe in the sensations of what 'new' means... I do believe in the blindness by choice because the feeling and infatuation demands a smile for no reasonable reason... I do believe in the feeling after feeling, all kinds of good and bad sensations, because it means that the heart works, and I can always feel again.

Lyrics by Mutemath