Trying hurts
How did I end up trying to prove something to you?
When did I put myself in this position again?
Like I need to win you over somehow?
This is wrong.

It has nothing to do with ego, but it is the ego who warns me
Forcing myself to believe again, hurts
Doing it all by myself, hurts
I have nothing to prove.

There's no doubt of where my heart is
But my thoughts can't be at peace while doing this
I see myself creating these ideas that hurt
When all I should be doing is seeing what you offer

Trying hurts
Why am I doing this?
The calendar must see its pages fall
But it won't see myself waiting

There is fear beyond you and me
Tonight I realized that what I fear includes you,
But that this fear can't be me right now.