Unwanted Permission

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'Cause they've told you about them
How you could reach out and gain something better
But there's too much in-between for you to see clearly
And your trust keeps on dying to make it all even harder

And they say you'd finally end up surrounded by any of them
While you think of ways to escape, to fly away
'Cause it feels so different to try the unknown
...knowing how much risking has broke your heart

They might be right, and my head crushes on this thought
Seeing myself walking and nodding along towards them
Sad visions of what I thought I was will stare at me
Singing tunes of shame and wondering what led me to it

'Cause they've told me about them
And I've met them as well, always with an exit pass
Aware of the danger of staying too long
But risking with each visit, each night, each permission I give myself

Lyrics by Death Cab For Cutie

Cath, she stands with a well-intentioned man
But she can't relax with his hand on the small of her back
And as the flashbulbs burst
She holds a smile like someone would hold a crying child

And soon everybody will ask what became of you

'Cause your heart was dying fast, and you didn't know what to do

Cath, it seems that you live in someone else's dream

In a hand-me-down wedding dress
Where the things that could have been are repressed
But you said your vows, and you closed the door
On so many men who would have loved you more

And soon everybody will ask what became of you

'Cause your heart was dying fast, and you didn't know what to do

The whispers that it won't last roll up and down the pews

But if their hearts were dying that fast,
They'd have done the same as you
And I'd have done the same as you
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And My Hair Will Grow

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I'll meet you in a park or a train station
I'll meet you surrounded by people unaware of this special moment
I'll meet you wearing something special
and with this unique and significative promise I made for you

I'll kiss you and hug you
You'll smile and stay silent
I'll make sure you know how happy I'd be to be with you

Because I've missed you for years
Since we met...
I've longed you for a long time
and I'm sure my life will be complete after seeing your face

So I won't make plans, or think of the best way to make it happen
I'll just hold on to this desire with a smile
Because we'll always be there for each other
And that moment will be so special that I won't even be able to imagine
My hair will grow and then it will just happen.
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Wave After Wave

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It was chosen before she was born, that insane appreciation for the rush... there's not much she can do about that, what does depend on her will is the way she stands and waits for it.

She's had different experiences, some more intense than others, some fresher but they all match at one specific attribute, as for the strenght they carry and goes through her body when she gets to live it.

As a routine, she goes over and over to find that mark to stand on, and gets herself ready in a very unconscious way to receive a set of sensations, strong, powerful and hurtful sensations.

It usually knocks her down, almost causing some physical damage and she can't really say what's so great about it, but soon enough she'll find herself standing on that spot once again, because they say there could be greatness after it, and she hopes for it.

Maybe she finds different positions, thinking of ways not to get hit with such impact, perhaps she'll figure out how to stand quicker before letting the water drag her down, but I'm sure it will still break her a little.

Somewhere there's a part of her head that has the answer to that way of living, probably it has something to do with the idea of maybe one day, she would finally be floating away... but everytime the wave pushes her down, it also pushes her far away from it.

So she'll just recover herself from the last one, to then be sure that with fake will power, some sad awareness and low amounts of faith, her body and heart will be facing it again watching as the hit gets closer and closer.

Lyrics by Fastball

They made up their minds
And they started packing
They left before the sun came up that day
An exit to eternal summer slacking
But where were they going Without ever knowing the way?
They drank up the wine
And they got to talking
They now had more important things to say
And when the car broke down They started walking
Where were they going without ever knowing the way?

Anyone could see The road that they walk on is paved in gold
And It's always summer, they'll never get cold
They'll Never get hungry
They'll never get old and gray
You can see their shadows Wandering off somewhere
They won't make it home
But they really don't care
They wanted the highway
They're happier there today , today

The children woke up
And they couldn't find 'em
They Left before the sun came up that day
They just drove off
And left it all behind 'em
But Where were they going Without ever knowing the way?

Anyone could see The road that they walk on is paved in gold
And It's always summer, they'll never get cold
They'll Never get hungry
They'll never get old and gray
You can see their shadows Wandering off somewhere
They Won't make it home
But they really don't care
They wanted the highway
They're happy there today , today
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What I want?

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One easy answer comes to my head, but this rational side tries to filter the words, even when plans get created behind this entry. Silly and stupid plans, that could actually give me what I want.


Things I didn't want, things I refused before 
You brought and threw at me


What I want, you say?
I want to pull back time
I wanna choose again


What I want?
Besides what I won't say here
Is to feed anger so it would leave sooner


Things I didn't want and refused before,
like muting myself or thinking of regret
you brought and threw at me
making me drop who I was


When I think about what I want, only one true thing comes along and I struggle with myself for it is something I never really wanted, and never really needed... But you did this and now I can't help it.


Lyrics by Metric


Black sheep, come home
Black sheep, come home
Black sheep, come home

Hello again, friend of a friend
I knew you when
Our common goal was waiting for the world to end
Now that the truth is just a rule that you can bend
You crack the whip
Shape-shift and trick
The past again

I'll send you my love on a wire
Lift you up every time
Everyone, ooh
Pulls away, ooh
From you

Got balls of steel
Got an automobile for a minimum wage
Got real estate, I'm buying it all up in outer space
Now that the truth is just a rule that you can bend
You crack the whip
Shape-shift and trick
The past again

I'll send you my love on a wire
Lift you up every time
Everyone, ooh
Pulls away, ooh

It's a mechanical bull at number one
You'll take a ride from anyone
Everyone wants a ride
Pulls away, ooh
From you

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Update

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I can get so frustrated with the shape this box might take, knowing that I'm the one to blame.

So I'll try not to touch her as much, instead... I'll go to Vienna to heal.
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FYI

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Too happy to come around here
In a way, I got used to write when something's wrong
And now, everything is the way it should be,
Just right, great.

I could write
Put some lines together
But they might come out way too pink for my taste
So I just won't,
Because I'm happy.
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Must Know

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That I don't usually feel this way
That I don't usually open my soul like this
That I don't usually say this much about myself
as I'm about to...

And also,
Knowing what I'm sure you already know
You must know
That I'll fight for us
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You

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I could list them, write their names or maybe describe them
Put them all on a wall using different kinds of paint
Decorate these memories and display them on the street
So all would know them, recognize them

Because I could make a composition of the ones that gave up
the ones that never felt like trying harder or getting themselves involved.
Such a proud production, filled with such fancy stories,
I have them all, and I could wash the sky with their names

This weird artist, expressing her feelings of frustration and disappointment
for her lovers, her story tales, her boxes and frames
facing in a second, one different perspective
one that, without knowing, is using his heart as a weapon

...hurting me with so much love
...so much love

One that seems so different from the rest
One that does not belong to this master piece...
of the ones that gave up... that didn't try
One that tonight, won't please me by walking away,
but might be gone so soon.

I think I'm ready, to get rid of this well known way of living
and surrender to a different kind of love
one that's true and pure
one that won't be displayed on that wall of deserters.

All of them...
But you.

P.S.: You can't blame me for deserving this.

Lyrics by Coldplay

Written in graffiti on a bridge in a park
'Do you ever get the feeling that you're missing the mark?'
It's so cold, it's so cold
It's so cold, it's so cold

Written up in marker on a factory sign
'I struggle with the feeling that my life isn't mine'
It's so cold, it's so cold
It's so cold, it's so cold

See the arrow that they shot, trying to tear us apart
Take the fire from my belly and the beat from my heart
Still I won't let go
Still I won't let go

You
Ooohooh

'Cause you do

Oh you use your heart as a weapon
And it hurts like heaven

On every street every car every surface a name
Tonight the streets are ours
And we’re writing and saying
Don't let them take control
No we won't let them take control

Yes, I feel a little bit nervous,
Yes, I feel nervous and I cannot relax,
How come they're out to get us?
How come they're out when they don't know the facts?

So on concrete canvas under cover of dark
On concrete canvas, I'll go making my mark
Armed with a spray can soul
I'll be armed with a spray can soul

You
Ooohooh

Oh, you
Ooohooh

Yes, you
You use your heart as a weapon
And it hurts like heaven

Woho-ooh
Woho-oooh

It's true
When you
Use your heart as a weapon
It hurts like heaven
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